I feel like that’s been the work I use the most these past few weeks. Oops did I say work, I meant word.
I’m just trying to get on top of all my school work, hand in all my final papers and begin revising for my baccalaureate.
I’m kind of okay with it though… I feel accomplished and I have a weird fetish for being organized no matter how unorganized I actually am. Sadly though, it’s resulted in me limiting social activities. I don’t mind it all too much, but sometimes I miss it. Yesterday I watched Eurovision with my friends, and we were having some drinks, playing our own music when the Eurovision songs sucked and dancing around the living room. It was fun, but also kind of exhausting. I mean, I suddenly felt like a 30 year old trying to party like they were still 20 – It’s like I’ve lost some of my immunity to partying… which is something I definitely plan to restore this summer 😀
I honestly cannot wait to finish school. After graduation day I will have a busy five days of organizing myself and getting rid of old school work that I will no longer need etc. etc. and then I’ll really be done. I won’t have to see the face of another high school text book… ever. Of course, those text books will be replaced by other, more difficult text books when I’m in university, but ain’t nobody got time to worry about that! This summer, I’m just going to enjoy the freedom. The freedom of not having any responsibilities, the freedom of not having any school work, the freedom of not belonging anywhere but also belonging everywhere, the kind of freedom which doesn’t cause me any anxiety because I don’t have to make choices anymore, because all of that will be behind me…
So yeah, maybe all that freedom means a lot of work and stress now, but I honestly don’t mind it. I don’t mind it because I have a motive to do it… because I know it’s all going to pay off 🙂
I have entered my last 3 weeks in high school and after sitting my exams, I will be done for good. Looking back, I found a post I made about how much I cannot wait until I graduate. I realize, that hasn’t changed much. Really, I just want it all to be over, no matter how sad I might feel come graduation day.
So yeah, I’ve come a long way, I’ve changed, I’ve grown, I’ve become a legal adult, I got 2-3 strands of white hair, I’ve learnt a lot more blablabla but I’m still hella confused about what I want from my life. The odd thing is, I was so determined and sure of what I wanted 2 or 3 years ago; even a year ago I half knew what I wanted, but now I’m just full of questions. I know that I will find something that is right for me but it’s frightening to not know what’s ahead of me. I suppose it’s also exciting. But I think the thing I’m looking most forward to is just finishing school and starting afresh somewhere new, somewhere different. A change of scenery might be just what I need.
You know shits getting real when you have to write your personal statement and deadlines are closing in on you.
This basically how my personal statement for UCAS is going so far:
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Blergh. I hate this.
I haven’t been keeping my promises of making posts more frequently because I’ve just been so overwhelmed with work, whether it’s my extended essay, tests or reading assignments, there is just too much going on. The last year of high school is definitely not a piece of cake…
I’ve also fallen behind which isn’t helping and every effort I make to get my life sorted out again seems to fail due to some external problem… like being late somewhere because of unexpected traffic.
I’m off to Turkey for a week tomorrow and it would be nice to know that I can kick back and relax however, I have literally got a butt-load of work to do 😦
I’m going to try my best to post at least 1 thing during the next week! In all honesty, I miss blogging!
Sorry that I haven’t been on your ‘reader’ for a while. I hope you didn’t miss me too much!
To be entirely honest, I haven’t even been that busy… I just haven’t spared time for going online. This year is my last year at high school and although it’s only been a month and a half since the end of summer, I can really feel the pressure. I decided that I needed to be just a bit more disciplined than last year and I felt like I needed to tame my relationship with the internet. I actually really did feel the effect of it… It was quite nice getting at least 8 hours of sleep a night, being on top of my work and social life, and just generally away from the rabbit hole that is the internet. It made me realize how much time I waste just sitting behind a screen, aimlessly chatting with someone on Facebook for hours, online ‘window-shopping’, youtube-ing or tumblr-ing. I almost feel ashamed of myself seeing how unproductive I’ve been when there’s so many things to do! But anyway, I’m back now. I’ve removed my laptop from my room which seems to be working for me. I can’t sit at the dining room table for hours… I always eventually feel the need to go up to my cozy room and do something productive like reading a book ❤
There’s so much to say that I don’t know where to begin! I won’t confuse you though, I’ll take it a step at a time. I’m going to try and queue a couple of posts for you all to recap on what you’ve missed. It should be an interesting year with lots of big decisions to make for the future and I’ll try my best to keep you up to date. 🙂
I’m glad to be back,
It’s sunny in Brussels today and it was sunny yesterday, and the day before that too.
I’ve decided to seize this rare occasion to write a blog post because I feel like I haven’t done so in such a long time!
Ever since the end of February, my life has been busy, busy, busy. February sounds like a very distant time from now, but I still can’t seem to get my head around how quickly time went by. Now it’s June… a month of sun (I hope).
I’ve been revising for my exams as well as doing some heavy procrastination. I can’t bring myself to participate in any activities because it makes me feel guilty that I’m not revising, so I feel better sitting in front of my books and wasting time on the internet. There’s only a week left until my exams and that helps to a certain extent because it obliges me to use my time more wisely.
Having said that, last night I went to see The Hangover Part III with my friends. Was it worth going to the cinema and paying 8 euros for that movie? Yes, because hello Bradley Cooper. Did it make me laugh? Occasionally. Were there any good jokes that you can remember? None at all. The Hangover is just one of those movies that you laugh loads at and then leave without recalling a single word. This doesn’t really apply to the first one because I still remember jokes from that but the second and third, not so much. I had a good time either way, and I would see it again just to see Bradley Cooper under the strobe lights at Caesar’s Palace (and I won’t say anything more – no spoilers). So if you’re looking for some fun to cool it off before or after your exams, it’s a good movie.
Anyway, I have to get back to the garden where I have set up my study area and resume revising for biology!
A while back I made a post about all the things that I was planning on posting in the near future. I am pretty sure that the near future has outdone me and passed me by, so I apologise for the delay, but here is a post concerning item #1: My history project.
I based my history project on wartime propaganda in films during WWII. I started off with a small list of topics that I thought would be interesting to study. One of them was cinema. Then I tried to come up with an interesting question I could ask myself about cinema and came up with propaganda in movies and I moved my focus to WWII as we are now studying that in class.
So far I have done not enough research… 😀
I did a small presentation on Casablanca last week which was pretty interesting. I hadn’t watched Casablanca before despite that we own the DVD of it, and while I was doing my research I read that it was one of the best propaganda films in history! Surprised as I was, I popped the DVD into the DVD player and watched it from beginning to end. I was really expecting it to just be a love story but I kept an eye out for all the wartime messages being conveyed to the audience. Any of you Casablanca lovers out there might want to watch it once again but with a different eye.
I have so far discovered that the most successful wartime propaganda films are those which don’t actually show the war. Sure, watching a big old movie about WWII will have a lot of propaganda in it, but people will be able to relate to soldier life less than everyday life which is exactly why Casablanca is such a great hit. See it doesn’t show the lives of soldiers, it focuses on a woman and a man in a difficult situation. The key is that all the while, there are German and French soldiers, financial difficulties and many, many people trying to escape from Europe. The audience picks up on these people, and on the behaviour of the citizens as they can relate to it very easily.
There are some other bits and bobs that I have read about in relation to my project but I had best keep them to myself for a while as I haven’t yet concluded anything… I should really get some more work done! If you haven’t watched Casablanca, don’t forget to do so 🙂
Wow, it’s been forever!
I don’t even know what happened over the past 2 months to let time pass me by. It was my birthday, then parties and extra-curricular commitments, school trips then WHAM! Easter in Turkey – a big fat rush, back to school, my sister’s graduation and somehow things are back to normal for a day or two before the hectic rhythm of my life picks up again on Friday.
In some ways I can’t complain because I’ve been so consumed in being active, I have little to no time to think.
In some ways, I am just longing for summer to come and never to leave… but then summer scares me because there is such a vast amount of emptiness and space and time to fill that I start to think and thinking means changing and one thing leads on to another and next thing you know, I will be wanting to do something completely ridiculous and I will have myself regretting it a month later.
I guess it’s just best to let time go by and let it play its mind games on m. There’s only about 9 weeks until summer and 1 of those weeks will be exams. I should sit back and try and enjoy the ride. It will be my last school bound summer so I probably deserve to not think. Come September I will be forced to do nothing but thinking and working… That feeling can wait until then and now I’ll just get on with what’s on my plate…
P.S. Sorry I haven’t been able to keep up with the checklist of things I wanted to post. Things have been too busy. I promise to keep to it all even if it is extremely delayed. My motto is always better late than never (see I’m generally always late to everywhere and everything… but only fashionably)!
I arrived back last Saturday, and in all honesty I do not know how the past couple of weeks went by. They were as quick as a breeze and I plunged back into school work so quickly that they’re only a distant memory now. I miss it though.
At this moment I am drowning in an essay I am writing about Satan in Paradise Lost and I really shouldn’t be ‘blogging’ but I can only take so much of Milton in at a time. I will be posting photos of my vacation shortly and I also hope to be making a post about my history project as promised so stay in touch with my blog that is so far from being a journal.
Right, back to Milton now!