The 7th of December is a day that I swear I will never, ever forget.
Last Friday, my mum and I drove all the way to Liege because I had been casted for a small part in a TV series which will air on Nickelodeon (eventually… like in June). It was the experience of my life and I realized once again that this is what I have to do because this is what makes me happy.
I have to say though, the experience was good in one sense and bad in another.
It was great in that I got the experience and I enjoyed it, but it was bad because it showed me how little I had advanced in comparison to what I should be even to be on the permanent cast of such a show. It just hit me like a ton of bricks that I had to do so much more! Then I realized what a waste of time my school was… my school which focuses on no theatrical arts… my school where I take biology and history… my school where only 7 out of 31 hours a week are enjoyable. I couldn’t help thinking this way, the thought just wouldn’t leave my mind; even when I was sleeping. As a result, I was reluctant to get my ass out of bed on Sunday morning, and reluctant to revise for my biology test. When I finally did rise from my bed, it was in tears and I had to confront my parents about the situation.
I just can’t bare wasting my time doing something of 0 relevance to my future. I don’t want to ruin the little chance I have of actually becoming a full time actor. I need to and have to focus on that. I don’t need biology!
Now all I have to do is a ton of research in order to find a suitable school and education… I guess that’s a ‘yay’?
Why am I always so insecure and indecisive about my future?
Apologies for excessive rant… I guess I just had to let it all out!