Monthly Archives: December 2012

Setting the Mood for NYE…

My slight obsession with this song is a bit worrying, but I can’t help it… it’s such a cute cover!

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I’m watching Alice In Wonderland on BBC 1 and it just reminded me of how much I love the ‘Jabberwocky’ poem. I still remember the first time I heard it when I was in primary school… 

Just thought it would be worth sharing:
“‘Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

‘Beware the Jabberwock, my son!
The jaws that bite, the claws that catch!
Beware the Jubjub bird, and shun
The frumious Bandersnatch!’

He took his vorpal sword in hand:
Long time the manxome foe he sought —
So rested he by the Tumtum tree,
And stood a while in thought.

And, as in uffish thought he stood,
The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame,
Came whiffling through the tulgey wood,
And burbled as it came!

One two! One two! And through and through
The vorpal blade went snicker-snack!
He left it dead, and with its head
He went galumphing back.

‘And hast thou slain the Jabberwock?
Come to my arms, my beamish boy!
Oh frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!’
He chortled in his joy.

‘Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.”

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Healthy Candy Cane

Healthy Candy Cane

Saw this on Pinterest and I thought I’d share. Just something fun and (for a change) healthy to eat today!

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‘Tis the Season to be… miserable.

Though I’d like to be celebrating Christmas somewhere exotic, or simply sitting at home doing nothing but eating I am busybusybusy studying. One could argue that I get the best of both worlds, but I think not… My exams start on the 14th of January, less than a months countdown, and I know nothing about phosopholipid bilayers, or Descartes, let alone the first world war… and that wouldn’t even suffice to pass my exams. I’m drowning in my 712 page (no joke) biology book trying helplessly to understand. But heck, who am I kidding, biology is like learning a new language. I mean what the actual fuck were they thinking when naming all these cells. I look up to any biologists out there, knowing that they must have been through a lot of hard work to achieve their current status.
Anyway, I hope everyone had a fabulous Christmas whether it was in a hot exotic climate, or at home with their family! On that note I shall return to suffocating in my 712 page book, trying to get my head around the structure of a protein (sigh)…

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So my slight hope of a new school, fresh start and new faces has now completely faded.
My mum and I went to meet two of my teachers today to discuss what would be good for my future, and they basically told me to sit my ass down, do the fucking work, and then do whatever the hell I want when I’m older.
A midst all this, I some how don’t know what happened to that whole ‘chase your dreams’ cliche everyone always goes on about. What’s the point if I don’t have the time (or the money to be frank)? I just feel useless. They told me I had a high enough intellectual capacity to continue, get a baccalaureate and then go off, but it sort of feels like they also don’t think I can make it the other way around. And I don’t understand, there’s already a dim enough chance for me ever to be good at anything creative because it’s all a dash of luck and a pinch of talent; so doesn’t wasting my time studying irrelevant things reduce the small chance I have even further? It’s all contradicting. Either they’re telling me I might not make it so I’m better of staying here, or they’re telling me I  might not make it so I’m better off staying here. So much for motivation.
The second I actually feel like I’ve found some sense of direction and I know what I want to do it just all comes tumbling down again.

The truth is I’m smart but not necessarily good enough, so I should get my head out of the fucking clouds and do something solid because that’s all that can be guaranteed. What a promise of a future.

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Sunday, bloody Sunday.

Uh, I think this has been the worst Sunday ever, and to think I will have a holiday full of days like these. 
I just spent my entire day doing homework and studying and I still haven’t finished… 
I’d like to be looking forward to the holidays but now I’m just dreading them… 
My exams are in January and I will be spending the majority of my time trying to understand biology which is virtually impossible.
I hate this so much. I know I sound like a whining baby but I honestly do not know why the hell I even took this subject. It’s not like I want to use it in the future. 
Waste of my tiiiime 😥

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Song of the Week:

Sorry for not having posted this in a while.

In the meantime, this seems like a great song to post for this week. I love ‘The Breakfast Club’ which was when I first ran into this song, and I loved that it came back up in ‘Easy A’ and even in ‘Pitch Perfect’. I did enjoy the ‘acapella’ version of this song despite that it can never beat the Simple Minds original version.

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7th of December 2012

The 7th of December is a day that I swear I will never, ever forget.
Last Friday, my mum and I drove all the way to Liege because I had been casted for a small part  in a TV series which will air on Nickelodeon (eventually… like in June). It was the experience of my life and I realized once again that this is what I have to do because this is what makes me happy.

I have to say though, the experience was good in one sense and bad in another.
It was great in that I got the experience and I enjoyed it, but it was bad because it showed me how little I had advanced in comparison to what I should be even to be on the permanent cast of such a show. It just hit me like a ton of bricks that I had to do so much more! Then I realized what a waste of time my school was… my school which focuses on no theatrical arts… my school where I take biology and history… my school where only 7 out of 31 hours a week are enjoyable. I couldn’t help thinking this way, the thought just wouldn’t leave my mind; even when I was sleeping. As a result, I was reluctant to get my ass out of bed on Sunday morning, and reluctant to revise for my biology test. When I finally did rise from my bed, it was in tears and I had to confront my parents about the situation.

I just can’t bare wasting my time doing something of 0 relevance to my future. I don’t want to ruin the little chance I have of actually becoming a full time actor. I need to and have to focus on that. I don’t need biology!

Now all I have to do is a ton of research in order to find a suitable school and education… I guess that’s a ‘yay’?

Why am I always so insecure and indecisive about my future?


Apologies for excessive rant… I guess I just had to let it all out!

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I apologize for not having posted a ‘Song of the Week’ for 2 weeks now. I haven’t actually forgotten, but I had something different in mind… a change. I was planning on recording a cover of me playing/singing the song of the week, however my laptops sound card continues to fail me… or maybe it’s just my rubbish singing?

I hope to post this asap, and I really, really hope that I don’t disappoint c:

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Sinterklaas kapoentje, gooi wat in mijn schoentje…

Sinterklaas is jarig!
Having lived in the Netherlands for 12 years, I have become more than accustomed to the celebration of Sinterklaas’ birthday. I am aware that in Belgium it is actually celebrated on the 6th of December however, I have grown up to know that pakjesavond is on the 5th of December and do not wish to change that – ever.

Despite that I am 16, I am childish enough to get ecstatic about it all!
Present in my shoe tomorrow morning, should be great!!!

For those of you who are unfamiliar with Sinterklaas, many simply summarize it as ‘Dutch Christmas’. The story is actually a huge contribution to the reason why Santa Claus has become a traditional figure over they years. To be brief, Saint Nicholas was a very kind man who was born in modern day Turkey (near the city of Antalya) centuries ago. He was especially known to be very kind and giving to children. After his death he was honoured every year on his birthday. It became a tradition to celebrate his birthday by giving children gifts. This tradition was widely spread and celebrated in most of Europe. As the years passed, the festivities lost their zeal and today it is only celebrated enthusiastically in the Netherlands, a little less so in Belgium and even less so in some parts of Germany. The figure of Santa Claus and his role during Christmas is largely based on Sinterklaas. The anglicised Santa Claus made his debut in the New World shortly after Dutch colonisation of the Americas.  Santa Claus became a lot more popular and as we know today, although he is the symbol of an important religious holiday, it has also become a very commercialized holiday. If you have anymore questions about this white-bearded and red-cloaked old guy, like what his deal is and how he is celebrated in the Netherlands, click here!

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