Monthly Archives: October 2012

Song Of The Week:

An early post of this weeks song given that last week was such a blur.

This week, I have found this song repeatedly stuck in my head.

Words are useless when it comes to describing this song as I have failed to find the vocabulary to express my feelings towards it; so I’d rather shut up, and let whoever is reading this now explore it for themselves…

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Dreams and Reality Coincide

I just got back from a cozy night in at my friend’s house.
We had a pre-halloween dinner, with finger sandwiches and spider cookies. Childish as they may have been I rather enjoyed it all… It was like stepping back in time to when everything was simple; and waking up in the morning, all we wanted to do was stay in bed for longer and never let it end.

Sadly, a pile of homework was waiting for my arrival – and it’s all due tomorrow.
The only thing I can look forward to now, is the upcoming holidays. Please, please, please, let this week pass me by!

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The Road Not Taken

Writing that post, reminded me of a poem by Robert Frost (who happens to be one of my favourite poets), The Road Not Taken… So, here it is:

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Robert Frost

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Back to the Future.

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I’m sure I’m not the only one who feels this way, but it seems, whenever I come across an important decision in my life, the plans I’ve always had for my future seem to shrink and become something not quite as exciting as I had intended for them to be. Take last year for example, I had to make subject choices which define what exams I will be sitting in my baccalaureate; which consequently define what I will study and what I will do for the rest of my life. I know that futuristic thoughts are never set in stone because you can always change what you want to do, but fundamentally that was the kind of pressure I had on me. I had to make a decision and suddenly I realized I had no clue what I wanted to do and every direction I decided to go in seemed to close its doors on me. Then slowly, my imagination diminished into being filled with nothing but the truth and reality. It’s was as though someone yanked me by the collar and said ‘Hey kiddo, Santa does not exist’.

I mean, let’s be realistic, I never believed ‘all my dreams would come true’. I knew that the world wasn’t full of good but I was still ambitious. Now, I just feel as if someone pulled the plug and all the motivation and ambition leaked out of me. When I think back to what I wanted to be and what I wanted to do when I was younger all I can remember is being passionate and fearless. Now here I am, sitting in front of a 10cm thick biology book reviewing the basics or sugars and proteins whilst praying that come Monday, I won’t have to sit a test for some miraculous reason. Sometimes, I just wish to go back and relive it all again, and tell myself what I know now; because I know that life isn’t just that. It doesn’t go the way you expect it because you don’t know what crossroads you will run into next; and when you choose the path you want to take, all you can do is hope for the best and never stop trying. It’s just… no one ever told me it would be this difficult, or exhausting, or (almost) demotivating…

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Daria – Imagine

Daria - Imagine

‘If you play that John Lennon song backwards, it says, “Imagine all the people, browsing in a mall.” Isn’t that weird? ‘

I love Daria’s sarcasm. ❤

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Things I’ll never say…

Deep down, I’m not brave; I’m a coward in love with your caring heart. You always gave me far too much credit for my barely real courage. 
But, you always try your best, I never meant to second guess. 
But mom, I’m losing my mind. 
There’s a hole in my heart where trust burned through but I never wanted to hurt you. That’s why I’m so terrified of sharing how I feel with you, that’s why it’s so difficult to stay mad at you. 
And mom, I hate to see you cry…

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Chasing dreams.

There comes a point in your life where you realize you’ve been trying so hard for so long, that you just decide to stop.
Not an inch of you wants to try; not an inch of you wants to attempt to make a change because you realize you’re exhausted, and all you want to do is to fall into a deep sleep.

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Transitions.

I do realize that I have skipped doing a song of the week. 
There is a reason behind it – I’ve been thinking and thinking but I just couldn’t find a single hit that could summarize my week. See, it was so full of mood swings that there wasn’t a specific genre I could even select from. 
I had told myself at the beginning of last week that this week would definitely be a piece from one of my favourite bands (Red Hot Chili Peppers or Nirvana), but as the week went on, I kept finding myself pondering through new worlds of music. From screamo through to pop ballads. I really had no idea what was going through my mind. 

So instead, this week I will share a link with you; http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL99O1PCYJkTqU7UCriUebJVyJzj5SIvmE

This is a playlist I created this week, based on a mix CD that had been playing in the car ALL THE TIME. I really like the songs though, so I hope you all enjoy them equally.

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It’s never enough.

Seeming to be a good person is never enough is it? 
Not if you don’t even know who I am. 
If only you knew, I wonder if you would change your mind…